My pain you will never know
For my life is like hell
And no will know what it’s like
To be left out, so many times.
No one can understand what it is like
To be so mistreated
And cry through the night
With pain and fright.
Some days, I want to die
Others I want to hide
But the thing that kept me going
Was your smile.
I knew that it would be hard
And you would never look my way
But I looked forward every day to see you
No matter what pain I endure.
I know that there is a chance to survive
If only I could have you
To stand by me everyday
No matter what I have to deal with.
Because of you I have the strength to continue
Because of you I approach the future
Because of you I am finally happy.
Which is why I thank you
For helping me
Not that you knew
It was all unknown, but it saved me.
Today, I did not write a poem, but I did want to share a poem I wrote in May 2013. I wrote this in middle school during what I consider to be the most difficult time in my life. I was being bullied, and this poem was a way to express my feelings without anyone else knowing them. This poem was never addressed to one person in particular, instead, I wrote to all of the random people who would smile at me or nod their head at me in acknowledgment in the hallways at school. Those small actions helped me persevere through that time in my life and shaped me into the person I am today. Although this poem is from over 3 years ago, I believe that this work, written by a then 14-year-old, is probably the most emotional and deep writing I’ve done so far.
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